Maine India Gayi Thee

I went to India.

My friend asked me why aren't you blogging about India? You have all these awesome experiences and foods that you should be talking about. I will...

To me, this trip is an emotional and physical one. being physically apart from the littles, being out side the USA in 15 years, and letting go.

I can't write any more right now about my trip because it is not complete. When I am on the plane I think I maybe able to. Won't have anything better to do. However it won't be a list or pictures, it maybe something completely different from what some expect. If you want to see some pictures, "like" the fact that a small cup of Chai is .16 cents or see a play by play, that's what face book is for.

By Jimminy... Cricket!

Got into the Cricket World Cup because of lack of interest in the sports. 50 days till Baseball so why the hell not?

I've watched about 12 hrs of it combined from yesterday and today. I keep thinking what would make the game more exciting to American people.

The speed. Cricket is slow. It take roughly 4 hours to complete one half of the game. Why not speed that up? Baseball did it. I say cut the field in half and pitch 5 balls to each of the 10 players. I know there is an 11th person so in case of a tie they come and get pitched 5 extra. Keep the points the same.

The fielders have one handed gloves (just like baseball). too many times balls dropped out of bare hands and the game could have been won (or lost) because they couldn't catch the ball. If not gloves the mitt that the keeper (catcher) wears on one hand.

There should also be more introductions of players. I don't know how however it was cool when they started counting down for the matches however for some one who has no clue who these people are and who they play for in the rest of the cricket world. Hell I didn't know we Americans had a cricket team until today!

Happy New Year

Happy New Year.

Sorry for the absence. I have been very busy with the littles and what not.

This year is going to be great. End of school at the end of the year, big travels planed, and the year of the Goat/Sheep/Ram which would be my year! Also turning a big number tho I am just happy it can be divisible by two.

Enough for now. SUPER HAPPY!!!

Thinking about what's next

Thinking about travel
Thinking about life
Thinking about what is going on with travel and life.

Planing my moves carefully
Planing is the key
Planing is 9/10th of the solution with me.

The unknowns of next year
Has my mind in a twist.
Planing and thinking are what my life is gotten to now.

Got my Tava pan

I now have the right pan for the job. Its a multitasker so I get to do bread and Dosa on it.

SQUEE!!!

 Made cookies as well.

Feeling out of sorts

Always with the holidays comes a lot of memories. The good, bad, and just down right aweful. Hope this years is one that can erase a bad one from the past. And the next years can continue on to the next. 

Thinking

Been doing a lot of thinking.

Been doing a lot of drinking and thinking.

Well haven't been doing the drinking, however been doing a lot of thinking.

A friend recently was dumped by a guy she thought she loved and it brought out a few emotions for me. The first was empathy for her loss. I mean I've been through a whopper of a trial recently. The second was to be cold, bitter, and basically a dumb robot.

Felt numb, felt nothing, felt like a disembodied person with no heart. That scared me.

Have I become a robot with no other feelings besides a few that I hold dear to my chest? I know that love is there to be compassionate, but it wasn't the case. Still hurting. A close friend said that I couldn't see what P.S. I Love You meant because "[I] have been a lil hurt from love..." Very true. I cried more at that statement and the one that followed than the movie that I watched twice and only cried once or twice at the wrong points in the movie, or what I thought was the wrong points of the movie.

The feeling that I was trying to pass on that robot feeling. Going through the motions of very day life with out that feeling of love towards some one and when you find that some one that truly deserves that love, you are at a loss for what you need to do or say. And maybe a few years go by and that chance has gone away.

I don't know maybe the right person has not yet graced my life or maybe that person has come and gone.

I don't really want to be a robot.

Does not compute.