Life as I know it

I may not be the best of words and sentence structure however its better to speak from the heart than to not and feel weird that you didn't.

Post separation and now post divorce has left me in an emotional void. Leaving me to ponder what was the wrong thing that I did, he did and how the relationships that I have with men, friends with benefits or just friends right now are being shaped with the views I have of my self right now.

My kids are the ones I value the most when it comes to this dynamic. They are my world. I will not introduce them to guys i date unless its becoming obviously clear that he will become a more stable part of my life ie getting married, or going to stick around and be faithful to me and them till the end of his life. However they will know about them because they are a part of me. I am very protective and they know they come first and not second. I put them above all.

However it makes me side eye a few men in general. Not that its bad just becoming more picky. Really would like a commitment from some one however I know that its not going to happen that soon so I better just commit to myself.

My oh My

Where has the time gone? I'll be honest, haven't written because of my insane schedule.

Single mom and going to school for my dream job.

Yup my dream job. I don't know why I waited so long to do this. Maybe I thought I wouldn't be happy with what I really wanted to do instead of what others wanted me to do.

I have all ready won scholarship money from Crispin Cider by baking a sweet deep fried apple rings. Let me tell you something it was AWESOME! Waiting for them to post the announcement some where however I will get off my lazy duff and post the recipes (yep 3) on here.

enough on the first day.

Moving on

It is hard to move on when your heart is broken.

It is hard to live a life that is only half of what you thought your life was going to be.

It is hard to move on when your heart is broken.

It is hard to live in the past yet search for the future brighter than that of the past.

It is hard to move on when your heart is broken.

It is necessary to move on.

It is necessary to pick up the pieces of your heart and glue it back together knowing that it will never be the same.

It is necessary to move on.

It is necessary to live a life worth living no matter how hard it is to put one foot in front of the other.

It is necessary to move on.

It is necessary to feel happy again in order to feel another life come into being.

With that I am moving on.

My eldest daughter is lost!!

My cat Bindi went out the door yesterday afternoon. I've had her since she was a kitten. I hope with all my heart she comes home safe in the next few days.

please let me know if you are in South san Francisco and see this cat! 415-613-0145

Getting By

I feel like I am getting by. Not having some one to be there to fill in about the day I had, not being able to have some one to shed a tear with.

Feel like I have to get a dog right now. The cats would hate it though. 

Having an empty side of the bed is just a reminder of what life should be, not what it is right now. I have been working on myself to get stronger. I have and I don't want to cry that often anymore. All I feel is emptiness. I need to fill myself with happiness, joy and love. 

But right now I am getting by. Just getting by.

Shame

A lot of things happened in the short amount of time I have been off the blog radar. I have been trying to find a job like a mad lady. I finally found one, well two or three. First off I am a qualified Farmers Agent, and I am going to be an Origami Owl Sales person, and soon hopefully some thing that may pan out to be a good part time job. Going to be tight lipped about this until it comes through.

My DIY Super Girl Cape Tutorial

My eldest daughter loves to be a super hero and wants to be a princess at the same time. So how do I combine the both?

A Purple Sparkle Super Girl Cape, of course. 

**Please Note that I took bits from other websites, so a big thank you to them for the ideas. Also a few links to them for more ideas**

Sewing Level : Any

What You need from the fabric store or your fabric stash:

1/2 yard Fleece (any color) (in this case Purple)

1/2 yard of the coordinating color in the fine material (in this case the Purple All That Glitters Fabric material)

Thread - either white or black to stitch together and the coordinating color for top stitching

A copy of the top of a baby bib pattern. I used Sew4Home's Baby bib top however any one with a wide neck will do.

Scissors, (A rotary tool and a cutting mat is good however a good pair of sharp scissors was all I needed)

Velcro in any color (I have some EZ Adjust Tabs from Joanns made by Babyville)

A tape measure

Sewing Machine

If you cut the material correct this should make one large cape (for the night) and a slightly smaller cape (for the day of course) or in my case one for the older sibling and one for the youngest.

1. I asked the oldest how long they want the cape to be (since the longest cape will be worn the most). In my case she wanted it to the top of her bottom. The measurement for her is 14 inches long. I added a few more inches for good measure so I put the total cape length at 16 inches long.

2. Fold the fleece in half and measure from the top of the fabric to the number that was determined. Note if you have heavier top fabric skip this step however the fleece does help provide weight to the lighter fabrics. Cut the fabric at the line and place the rest to the side for other projects or the second "day cape".

3. Decide what will be the bottom of cape then cut. From that cut the neck on the fold and then cut the angle of the cape. You can make it to a point or in my case I made it round at the ends.

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4. With the cover fabric keep fold on the bottom and cut the material slightly over the fleece. the cover fabric will be glitter sides together.

5. PIN PIN PIN! Please have the wrong side of the fabric out and the glittery bits on the inside. Also Make sure to leave a 2 inch gap at the bottom (like the picture below) so you can turn the fabric. Also do not cut the neck hole out yet.

6. Sew, Sew and Sew

Should look like this when you are done

7. Cut out to the edge of the fleece, make small triangles to make turning easier in the neck  and straps and then turn. 

 8. Pin the gap down and top stitch with the coordinating thread of the top fabric  (I did a zig zag stitch)

9. Add the Velcro. See the tabs are a very convent shape to this project. Secure the tabs to the neck by a box and an X. I cut around the rough side to keep my daughters necks from getting scratched.

Super Girls were out with their dad at the time of the picture will update when they return!

And you are done. Simple? Okay, okay here are some great links for more super hero capes where I got some of my ideas:

Crazy Little Projects  Personalized Superhero Cape Tutorial

Racks and Mooby  How To Make a Superhero Cape {no sew!}

Diary of a Quilter Super easy Superhero Cape Tutorial