Thankful for

This year unlike the last years I am actually thankful for a lot.

A friend has told me that I have truly become her life time friend, which I thought was impossible to do because of who I am in general. However I guess I have changed for the better.

Two wonderful littles which are coming into their own. I am one proud mom.

People I can open up to when it feels like I can't do anything but to curl up into a ball and cry. They give me motivation to do what I need to do to dwell and help me move on.

For my new glasses. I can see clearly now the fuzz has gone. I remember what my X-FIL stated about getting corrective surgery for his eyes and complained that the world was too bright, well my complaint is that the world is too sharp now. I maybe getting contacts tho I may just have them for work or going out once and a while.

What are you thankful for this week, month and or year?

Thank you for the memories

Being thankful is something I need to work on. I try and try to say I am thankful however I don't show it as often as I really would like.

I am thankful for a year of great people that like me even when I was really down and out.

I am thankful for only a few people that can talk me down from a wall.

I am thankful for my littles and their comfort and support when I am in need of a little pick me up.

I am thankful for finding what I truly want to do in life.

I am thankful for a lot of reasons. To each person thank you. Thank you for the memories and I am looking forward to making more in the next year and beyond.

Finished Reading

Finished reading all of the books from Chetan Bhagat, okay not all. there is a book of non-fiction that is out there that I may or may not pick up in a week or so. However the other six are good fast reads.

I found this author while watching Hindi movies. In the 3 Idiots description on Amazon, it stated based on a book from said author and since I liked the movie, I thought "hey why not pick up the book and see where that leads?"

Here I am with all 6 books and 2 and a half months later saying to go look at them.

I like them because 2 are true to his life and 4 are other peoples stories that are brought to him however he has the narrative in the main character's voice instead of a lot of brakes back into reality.

Which one is my favorite? I like 2 States, simple fact its a love story between two people that had the odds against them. I also liked the movie and the sound track. I guess the romantic part of me hasn't died off completely.

I say get the whole collection because once you start its very hard to put down.

Now does any one have any other recommendations about books? Authors?

Understanding Hindi

I know I am getting comfortable with the Hindi language, how you ask?

While watching movies, I am falling asleep. To an outsider falling asleep would mean being bored, tired and just rude. However in my brain, its being comfortable with the language.

I do this to the other languages I know, especially Japanese.

I still can't speak Hindi, I am probably at a one year old level (if that), however the next six weeks I'll have time to actually study since school isn't too demanding. And I have to be a tutor for two hours after, which means I'll have down time even more just at school.

My goal is by the new year to at least be at a kindergartner level. Maybe I'll get the Rosetta Stone programs for Japanese and Hindi. However I may have to find some computer engineers to speak Hindi with because there isn't a big Indian community that I know of where I live. I may have to go across the bay for that as well.

Got to get up and start the day.

Tired

I was going to do a vent post about how my life is turning out to be one big mess right now.

However I'm not, can I just say I am tired?

I am super tired about everything. I am tired of what the X has done the last two years and its been hell to get out from under what he has done.

I am tired of what I am putting myself through to make it 100 times tougher and making life a brick wall when it should be an elevator to success.

I am tired of people who say that they'd be there, however not give me a second look when its not convenient to do so for them. I guess I need to start making new friends...

I am tired of not being happy with myself. I am trying each and every day to make myself happy... maybe I should make bread soon. That makes me happy.

I am going to talk with the breads teacher at school and see if I can make some of the breads that I see in the Bread Book for winter presentations at school. I think that will make me happy... I think.

Waking up

Been waking up early. Way before my alarm goes off. I think I have too much on my mind.

From travel, to school, to the littles.

I'll be fine. The world doesn't end or begin with me.

The Bombay dilemma

While watching a Bollywood movie "Wake Up Sid" there was an interesting disclaimer about how there were references to Bombay instead of Mumbai. So I switched tabs and read up a little on history.

In 1990's, while I was half paying attention to the news in the world, a group of people changed the names of several cities in India to be more in line with taking off the shackles of colonialism and other factors going on in their slice of the world at the time.

It makes sense now from what I've been reading, watching, and even the airport code BOM makes sense. I don't know why they'd go through all that trouble to get rid of everything except for a few things. I know its hard to shake off Bollywood as a title, I don't think Mumbaiwood or Mumwood has the same effect on hopefuls trying to make it big in the movies.

In my world Mumbai and Bombay have been two separate places sharing the same space on the map. They exist equally and yet are two separate cities. It will be interesting to see the two cities in person.