Travel plans

Don't know about me and travel. I am itching to go some place. I know the places I want to go just need to get my butt there.

Long ago in 1984 I went to Europe with my mother. Don't remember a darn thing. 1990's rolls around and boom I'm back on an air plane stamping my passport in Central America and back in Europe. This time because of my age, I was able to remember most if not all of the events that happened. The one thing I didn't like was being under my parent's thumb. Mainly my step father however it was still some one saying where to go or what time to go to bed.

In 2000 my first trip by my lonesome. To Japan. I was by myself for the first time and loved it. The only thing I had to do was to get to the youth hostel in time so they wouldn't lock me out. The funny thing was I went to historical places and other museums by myself with out my dad telling me to do so.

I thought I would be back to the West side of the planet (well Japan and other Asian countries are to my west0. Then life took hold and I have my two littles. I thought my travel bug was done biting for a long time, well until they were old enough to travel with me. I guess my bug couldn't wait that long.

I have 24 days till my passport is sent to me. I really haven't thought about my life as a traveler in a while. Its exciting and scary. In the next 23 days, I think I'll be sharing a lot more about my travel plans.

I am all ready planing trip number 1 in my head...

Songs

Every one has songs that they hold close to their hearts. Here are a few of mine. May be eclectic however that's how I roll. This is in no particular order.

1992 - Seventh grade - First dance - It's So Hard To Say Goodbye To Yesterday - Boyz II Men
2009 - How I felt about my first born - 1,2,3,4 - Plain White T's
1988 - New Kids On The Block fan girl - Hangin' Tough - NKOTB
1986 - (and beyond) My birthdays - It's My Party - Leslie Gore
2014 - First 6 Months - Let it Go - Movie Frozen
2014 - Last 6 Months - I'm Moving On - Rascal Flats
1997 - How I felt about my life - All Mixed Up - 311

Love to listen to new stuff. Even if it means annoying every one around me with a different sound than what they are used to. I love to listen to what the world listens to and try to come up with an eclectic mix. Right now, I am listening to some Bollywood and Country music. 

I miss my old computer. It had some Indian music I got back in 2007 from a video game engineer that was very shocked that I liked the music he was listening to. I told him it had a good beat and I liked it. He gave me a CD of some songs and I put them in my library. Now its in a digital space because my computer decided to take a noise dive and I don't know where the original hard drive is now. 

I am always looking for some good music. Comment on your favorites.

Kokum Coconut Sorbet

I had a free chance to make it in class yesterday.

Still needs tweaking and only time will tell.

I am going to try again to make and measure out the ingredients though because in my haste to make it I forgot to write things down. I felt that with my other failures of this sorbet it would never take.

I guess it actually took this time.

K-C Sorbet being made at school

I also made a cherry-lemon sorbet too. however it was my safe grade and this was just a side project. This weekend I hope to measure and tweak it so I can take it back on Monday to show my teacher that it can be palatable.

Two States: The story of my Marriage - the Movie

Good Movie. I have yet to read the book (it was back ordered) however I am reading a lot of Chetan Bhagat's books lately.

After seeing 3 Idiots, another movie based on another book he wrote, I have been on a book journey to read that book, then I found out that it was one of many, so like the bookworm I am, I had to get the whole collection. And not just the kindle books or B&N reader versions. Actual paperback books.

I wonder after I get done reading, what other books should I read?

Sugar Cookies, Cupcakes, Oh My!

Even though I am now officially open as Bella Roux (On Thumbtack) I have been getting bolder about what events I can do for my littles.

For my oldest I am going to make 250-300 cupcakes for her school's festival (pictures coming soon!) and for my youngest I am going to make 200 cut outs of Halloween sugar cookies with icing and sprinkles (pictures also coming soon).

I kind of feel like doing this will open doors for me and hopefully I can make a living in the future doing this full time so I can have time with my littles with out working 60-100 hrs in a cubical.

Feeling like I can do this... maybe...

New Montra

Today is a day where I have to state to myself: "Get up, Get up! Stop feeling sorry for yourself!"

Do know why however its more of a internal conflict than on of dire need to talk out right now. I have these moments every so often however its days like these I have to actually pull myself out of bed and not feel like curling up into a ball and crying.

Okay here I go world. Today is going to be a good day. I have the littles and I am going to learn how to make Sorbet correctly (if I haven't yet talked about my Kokum trials and tribulations, I will soon). Got to get up.

Get up

Up.

NOW AMANDA...

Moving on?

Am I ready to move on?

To face reality of the next chapter of my life.

I have moved on from the X, however not completely. Heather, a personal and dear friend, has told me that if you can be in the same room with him and walk up to him to say "Hi", then have indifferent feelings about looking at him, then you are over him.

I still am at the stage of wanting to punch him in the face a few times still for what he did to the littles.

However, I am almost there.

It becomes difficult when my heart tugs on the strings for some one else. I feel trapped in my world. If I don't think about it, I think about it more and more. I hate that. I really do.

I need to stay rooted in the present or I live in the horrid past or am torched living in a future that does not exist yet and I ignore the people that need me now. My littles, my friends, and family.

And if having the person that I really like as a friend, well good friend, right now is what I need to accept because I really value his friendship and advice then I must come to terms with that as well in the present.

I still need to work on the X thing anyway.