Getting By

I feel like I am getting by. Not having some one to be there to fill in about the day I had, not being able to have some one to shed a tear with.

Feel like I have to get a dog right now. The cats would hate it though. 

Having an empty side of the bed is just a reminder of what life should be, not what it is right now. I have been working on myself to get stronger. I have and I don't want to cry that often anymore. All I feel is emptiness. I need to fill myself with happiness, joy and love. 

But right now I am getting by. Just getting by.

Shame

A lot of things happened in the short amount of time I have been off the blog radar. I have been trying to find a job like a mad lady. I finally found one, well two or three. First off I am a qualified Farmers Agent, and I am going to be an Origami Owl Sales person, and soon hopefully some thing that may pan out to be a good part time job. Going to be tight lipped about this until it comes through.